September 27, 2008: The Hardest Show Ever

Mountain View, CA
Shoreline Amphitheater

Hi all. It's been a long time since I posted my last Rockin' Road Report. I'm just back from my first Journey show in over 2 years. That seems so weird to say. And so much has happened since I was last at a Journey show, it's really hard to know where to begin.

I guess I need to go back a few months in time first. When the show was first announced, I looked at the date and thought "oh cool, the weekend before my birthday." I expected a fun filled night with my Journey buddies from near and far which would lead into a kick ass week that concluded with the big 4-0. That's what I got, but just not the way I had expected -- not by a long shot.

Hard as it is to believe, but it's been nearly 4 months since the world turned upside down and I lost my dear friend Darla. In a cruel twist of fate, the tickets for tonight's show went on sale on her birthday -- the day before her funeral -- and I got assigned to pick up 12 tickets for her family and close friends. With that many tickets to buy, we wound up with seats in the back section and I had to laugh -- no way would those seats have been acceptable in the past, but being with friends was more important.

After I bought the tickets, I pretty much put the show out of my mind. It was a day in the future that I would deal with when it came. Thinking about it took me to a place I didn't want to go, so I didn't. When we finally reached September, I couldn't block it out any more and the numbness of the summer faded and I began missing my friend more and more. This wasn't how it was supposed to be. This past week has been especially emotional for me. Co-workers asked me if I was going to the show, and I told them I was, but I fully expected it to be a weird experience.

Which brings us to tonight. Got ready for the show as I normally do, but got more phone calls and text messages than normal as we tried to get the logistics worked out who had which tickets and so on. Met up with Cheryl, Charles, and Emerson and headed over to the pre-show party. Thanks for organizing it Frank -- sorry I'll miss your party tomorrow. It was nice to see some old familiar faces among the quite a few unfamiliar ones.

Headed over to the amphitheater in plenty of time, which was good since getting to the parking lot took forever. The band had left after-show passes for Emerson and Telysa (Darla's daughter) so we headed over to will call to pick them up. We were expecting two passes, but when Emerson came back not only did he have four passes, but four tickets! So a HUGE thank you to the guys for that. Cheryl, Charles, and I joined Emerson at the new seats. Unfortunately it mean that two of our friends were sitting alone in our original seats.

So, we headed in and I spent all of Cheap Trick's set visiting with friends. I'm not a huge CT fan and the last time I saw them I didn't enjoy their performance, so preferred to sit it out. Could hear it from where we were and I will say they sounded better than they did the previous time.

I did, however, REALLY want to see Heart. So headed over in plenty of time to get to my seat. As I was heading in, I noticed there was a line for a Meet and Greet for Journey. Uh-oh... what time were our passes for? Emerson had them and he was waiting to meet up with Telysa. Lots of text messaging and calling trying to make sure everything was OK. (Yes, our passes were for after the show.) Unfortunately, this meant I missed the first couple of songs of Heart's set. BIG BUMMER! In any case, in my next life I want to be Nancy Wilson. They were absolutely fantastic. Ann Wilson has one of the greatest voices in rock and roll EVER and she sounded fabulous.

The weird thing about Heart's set, however, was that I started getting choked up at different points. Okay, the brain has definitely gone somewhere else tonight. "These Dreams" nearly had me in tears. So did "Alone," though I suspect that one was more about remembering where and when I was when that song came out. Definitely a sentimental favorite of mine. And once again proving that I like Led Zeppelin songs as long as Robert Plant isn't singing (yes, I know, but ugh his voice grates) I absolutely loved their cover of "Going to California."

Their set ended and now it's time for Journey to take the stage. Lots of thoughts crossed my mind -- not the least of which was that there would be a handful of songs I really wouldn't know the lyrics to. Try as I might, I haven't been able to listen to Revelation much since I got it. Unfortunately right now it's a victim of seriously AWFUL timing and has absolutely nothing to do with the CD itself.

I knew the warm up song was "Back in Black," so when it started I took a deep breath and said to myself "here we go." The guys took the stage and I was on my feet, but oddly weak kneed. Deep breath. They kick into "Never Walk Away" and I'm singing along -- it's the only song I know all the words to due to an insane amount of airplay on KFOG (which is seriously weird!!) But, uh-oh... there's a lump in my throat and I think "Darla would be laughing so hard at me right now." Into "Only the Young" and the tears start welling up. Sigh. That song and "Still They Ride" are ones that have been reminding me of Darla a lot this past summer. Breathe and tell myself to pay attention -- this is the first time you're seeing Arnel and you need to form an opinion not have an emotional breakdown. Still, I wonder if I'll make it all the way through the show.

Thank god for the "Star Spangled Banner." No emotional connection to that beyond the basic patriotic vibe. Have they been playing that all tour? I'm so out of the loop I don't have a clue, but laugh to myself and think "Neal saw the Chronicle yesterday that listed his as one of the best versions of our national anthem!"

I'm able to focus on the show now, and I have to say I was very impressed by Arnel. He's got a fantastic stage presence (though I do wish he'd taken off the hoody way sooner than he did -- he looked like he was rehearsing or a roadie.) The hometown crowd ate up the show and were on their feet through out -- even for some of the new ones. Wow.

I enjoyed the show, though I will admit I wasn't as into it as I have been in the past. Part of that I know is adjusting to another change in the band (they GOTTA paint Jon's piano... black is just WRONG!), but a bigger part is where my head was at through out the show. I couldn't not think of Darla through out and missed being able to lean over and say "he hit that note" or "hey, they're playing 'When You Love a Woman'!" I will say a personal highlight for me was hearing Deen on "Keep on Runnin'." Couldn't believe it when he held the high note! (Though, really, he needs to change the hair!) "Lights" as always got a great reaction and the glow of cell phones waving lit up the night. Laughed to myself at the reaction to "Open Arms." As personally tired as I am of that particular tune, you can't deny the enthusiasm of the crowd. Couple of cool video moments for me included the Sopranos style Journey after DSB and the video they played on the screen during "Wheel in the Sky" was really fascinating.

The after-show was a bit weird as we got shuffled from one place to another and basically it was "here ya go, mix and mingle and see if you find anyone you know." We did get to see Ross and Neal and chatted a bit with Les, Barb, and Miles before being told it was time to leave. Did wish I'd had the opportunity to tell one of them thank you. Escape has been in heavy and frequent rotation in my car these past four months. It's always been that candle in the darkness for me and has now proven it's bullet-proof and can withstand any dark time for me. There aren't enough words to express how important that is. Amazing that 27 years on it still provides that emotional lift I need when I need it. I will forever love this band for that, regardless of any thing else that may happen over time.

On the drive home I thought a lot about the past 10 years. Almost 10 years ago to the day I flew off to Michigan to see Journey live for the first time. Then as now I was seeing a new singer. Then as now I got an opportunity to go backstage and meet the band. A lot has happened in between though, and I have so many incredible memories that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. I just wish Darla had been here to share this one.

October 4, 2003: Arrowfest

Irvine, CA
Verizon Wireless Amphitheater

Some birthdays are just better than others. Five years ago, I celebrated my 30th birthday by going insane and hopping a red-eye to Detroit and seeing Journey live for the very first time. Five years and 40-something road trips later, I was spending my birthday tooling down I-5 from the Bay Area to Irvine to catch the last show of the year for Journey. Not a bad way to celebrate.

Arrowfest was a day long concert put on by one of the LA area classic rock stations and featured a line up of Eddie Money, Cheap Trick, "Foreigner" (Lou Gramm and his band is more accurate), Yes, and Journey. Originally, I thought that the main acts started at 2:00 -- it wasn't until I got to So. Cal that I learned that Eddie Money wasn't scheduled to hit the stage until 4:00. Well, heck, that gave me a bit of extra time and I could watch the baseball playoffs. (Woulda been better if the concert had started earlier so I wouldn't have had to witness the complete and utter failure of my beloved Giants, but I digress...)

Cheryl, Rose, Tracey and I headed out to lunch before the show and then went and did battle with the parking lot at the amphitheater. Two words -- never again. The nimrods "directing" traffic kept directing us to places that were already FULL. So, after driving around in circles for 15 minutes, we parked about 10 days from the entrance and hiked up to the venue. Thus, we missed the first part of Eddie Money's set. It was enjoyable and he covered most of my favorite hits, so that was covered. Eddie was followed by Cheap Trick -- a band I am relatively unfamiliar with so I sat through their set watching the antics and puzzling over the on-stage chemistry. I was not overwhelmed by their set and Rick Nielsen's (sp?) changing guitars between every song was rather distracting.

"Foreigner" was up next, and as I mentioned above was really Lou Gramm and his band rather than Foreigner proper. But they did play mostly the hits. Lou sounded better than he did back in '99 when Forgeiner toured with Journey, but he looked much worse. Hopefully his health is good, because he didn't look it. I wound up missing the last part of their set due to a looooooooooooooooooooooooong line for the ladies room.

Yes hit the stage about 8:00 and I sat in my seat trying to figure out why they were on the bill with the other acts -- they just didn't fit. I had thought that when the bill was announced and their show solidified that opinion. Their musicianship was incredible (though they did have some problems with the low end sounds being a bit fuzzy, as had all the previous bands) but again this was a band I was only passingly familiar with and I just couldn't get into the set. (I actually began dozing off in my seat!) I caught Steve Augeri watching their set from the side of the stage -- very obviously enjoying what he was seeing. The most exciting part of their set was when security walked in to my row and started talking to some people about half way down the aisle. All of the sudden I look over and one of the security guys is falling back over the row in front of me. I jumped out of my seat (mercifully on the aisle) and into Rose's seat behind me and just in the nick of time -- the FIVE security guys were carrying out a woman who was kicking and punching and throwing an absolute fit. It took a while to subdue her and she was finally cuffed and carried out.

Once Yes ended it was time for yet another run out to find friends and fellow fans and to make a pit stop in the ladies room and grab something cold to drink. I paid for my drink and suddenly heard cheers coming from the amphitheater -- ACK the guys were taking the stage and I was on the complete OPPOSITE side from where my seat was. I made a mad dash back inside and got to my 2nd row orchestra seat in front of Jonathan just as the first verse of "Separate Ways" was starting. This is when the birthday started getting good -- Jonathan was in black leather pants.

The crowd for Journey was fantastic -- on their feet from the first note until the last as far as the eye could see. They were the only band to get this reaction. The guys were on fire. The sound problems that all the other bands had endured did NOT happen for our boys, and I was pleased. After another amazing rendition of the "Star Spangled Banner" by Neal, I got my next "present" -- the guys launched in to my favorite song from Arrival and current personal theme song "To Be Alive Again." WOO HOO!!! I had more or less expected that due to this being a multiple-band show that Journey would be playing the same kind of set they had for the Main Event featuring the Greatest Hits and no Arrival.

Two songs later, WHAM, another "present" -- Steve introduces Deen to sing and it's "Mother, Father," my all-time favorite. Since Deen's mic had cut out when he performed this at Konocti, it was the first time I got to hear him sing it in its entirety. Once again, my knees got weak and I was crying. That song will always get me every time, and Deen did an amazing job. I do need to remind them to post warning signs when this song is in the line-up so that I can be prepared with Kleenex.

The set went on and was just flawless. Jonathan dedicated "Feeling That Way" to his daughter Madison who was celebrating her 10th birthday. Madison and Liza and a whole crew of girls (including Liz Cain) came out on stage to do the "Na na"s in "Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'" -- that's some kind of birthday party!

After the show ended a group of us made our way back to the Doubletree Hotel (some of us getting more lost than the others -- "near the Spectrum Center" is not specific enough direction!) for one last drink and farewell until next year. Everyone was very sad that this was it for a while, but as I was making the six-hour drive back up I-5 today I was reminded just what a great blessing we've had. It's been another amazing summer, and we're looking forward to another one next year. That's pretty great. We've had 5 years of this band back on the road doing what they love to do and allowing the fans to enjoy incredible music. We've gotten to meet fellow fans from around the globe and we can throw the biggest and best parties. So instead of being sad about what's ended, be happy about what we've gotten to enjoy.

Until next time... we will meet again.

Set List:
(thanks to Jay since I forgot my pen and paper this time!)

Red 13 Intro
Separate Ways
Stone in Love
Wheel in the Sky
Star Spangled Banner (Neal's solo)
To Be Alive Again
Dixie Highway
Mother, Father
Lights
-- Jonathan's solo --
Open Arms
Precious Time
Feeling That Way
Anytime
Chain Reaction
Ask the Lonely
Don't Stop Believin'
Escape
Be Good to Yourself
Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'

Encore:
Any Way You Want It
Faithfully

Oh.. P.S. -- on an amusing note, the chick from Journey's "Blind Date" episode was sitting in the row behind me (thanks again to Jay for identifying who she was, all I noticed was that she looked familiar!) Ladies and gentlemen, she is even scarier in person than she was on that gawdawful show. EEK!